Tag: pain

Mystery

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Mystery

My husband retired last July, and I got behind in blogging because I used to do my blogging and reading of blogs during lunch.  Now, I eat lunch with him. I’m trying to get caught up on reading other’s blogs and writing my own.

Overall, I’m glad that Warren is retired and is spending more time with me.  We have been together since 1970.  We moved in together that year.  When we were younger, and sometimes not employed, we always had a blast together.  I had pictured the same thing would be true now that we are no longer employed and have all day free to play.

The only thing I did not consider is that I am sick, and can’t go out and play anytime I want to.  Despite that, I am still enjoying having Warren in my life all day, every day.

This winter was very hard for me.  I had a flare of some kind, and was sick from New Years Eve until recently.  I am feeling on the upswing now.  But, it was a real scare.  I went back to spending days where I could do nothing but lay in bed, under the covers and be very sick.  I had a lot of pain breakthroughs that were very severe.  On those days, old tapes would start to play in my head.  I would start to think that I was going to spend all day, every day back in bed and be able to do nothing.

That is when positive thinking came back to save me.  I got myself calmed down and thought through the process logically.  I would admit that yes, I’m sick today.  But the recent pattern has been that I will be sick one day and then better the next.  Usually within two days, I’m up, dressed and going out to lunch with Warren.  I affirmed these things.  I prayed for help and guidance.  I practiced positive thinking.  I forced myself to think in a positive way.

As usual, it worked.  The pain eventually subsided and is under control again with morphine.  I have more energy and am feeling better just in time for summer.

Milestone — I got 200 Followers

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Sea Life 2

I would like to send all the people who follow my blog a BIG thank you.  I just reached 200 followers.

When I decided to start a blog, I figured maybe I’d get ten people following.

I started this blog to talk about how I managed to have a life even with Fibromyalgia and lyme.  But soon after I started blogging, I saw that really, I’m an artist.  That is who I am.  Life can do what it will to me, I do art.

I thought Fibro and lyme had taken art away.  I basically did very little art for over 15 years as I was too sick.

Since starting treatment for lyme four years ago, the art abilities have come back. 

No Dairy for Kerry

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22-A

I recently went to see a new internist.  With all my negative experiences over the years with doctors, I expected only the worst.  My plan was to just get anyone as a new internist, as the present one was in his 70’s and his wait times were hideous, like more than two hours.

I arrived on time for the appointment, and the doctor was running on time.  That was good after the last guy.

She took 40 minutes for my first appointment.  She got a complete history of all the various things that are wrong with me.  She advised that since I have fibromyalgia, my body was inflamed.  Yeah, OK, I know that.  Then she says, “therefore, you shouldn’t eat dairy, as it further inflames the body.”  OMG.  A doctor discussing health and nutrition.  That’s an oxymoron.  Doctors usually know nothing about nutrition.

She went on to say that I should change my diet to vegan or modified vegan, that is allowing some chicken and fish, depending on where they come from.

She further told me to watch a movie called Forks Over Knives.  I highly recommend this movie.  It gives the scientific reasons why one should consider a vegan diet.  Basically the science shows that diets high in animal protein cause cancer.

I’ve Been Gone

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Abstract-13c1

I was so excited when I started this blog.  I had so much energy.

Now, for the last couple of months, I’ve had a fibro flare.  It started with just a bit of tiredness.  Then that got worse.

Now, I’m having horrid, unbearable pain.  Well, not totally unbearable, as I’m bearing it.  But it’s bad.  Since about 1998, the pain has been pretty much under control with medication.  I’ve had a few episodes of breakthrough pain that last a few days at a time.

This pain started two months ago and is not giving me a break.

The doctor who treats me for Lyme decided to tell me to try taking fewer pain meds.  I did this, thinking he knew what he was talking about.  He didn’t.  After going down just 15 mg., the pain came and it has stayed.  I really dislike this man right now.  I’m working very hard on not hating him and not getting angry at him.  I’m trying to be able to handle my feelings towards him with trying to learn.  The lesson from this?  Don’t listen to doctor’s who give advice about areas where they know nothing.

I was doing so well.  I was able to get out of bed and go out for up to four hours at a time.  I always had to rest the next day, but I was getting out.

Not now.  I’m at home, in bed, in severe pain.

At least I can paint on the computer.  It takes me away for a while.

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