Tag: Lyme disease

I’m Giving Up

Out In A Flash

Out In A Flash

I have faithfully posted every painting I have done since I started my blog.  Then my husband retired.  I always did anything blog related during lunch.  Well, now I eat lunch with my husband.  I can’t fit blogging into my life.  But I loved to blog.  I loved the few blog buddies I made.  They were great friends.  I had some loyal followers.  I chatted back and forth with a few people.

I miss blogging,

But I just can’t fit it in like I used to.  I don’t want to take my site down, but I probably should.  I put up a post and get three likes at the most.

I keep hoping it will work out somehow.

Blogging saved me,  I was stuck in bed for over 18 years with Lyme disease.  I’ve finally gotten better.  That’s also probably why I can’t fit in blogging.  I actually have a life now.  Not a real big one, but it keeps getting bigger.

Anyway, I’m going to start by not posting every painting I paint.  First, some aren’t that good.  Second, I just can’t keep up.  Third, I’m posting them all over at Instagram,  if anyone has s burning urge to see all my art, go there.  Then you can also see my photography.

Yes, I’m doing photography now.  I even have a macro lens for my iPhone.  I bought an Olloclip macro,  it is totally awesome.

The painting is called Out In A Flash.  I painted it with some awesome brushes made by Skip Allen.  You can check out his super blog at http://skipallenpaints.com.

Driving Home Ain’t What It Used To Be

Driving Home Ain't What It Used To Be

Driving Home Ain’t What It Used To Be

This is another painting using impasto brushes.

As usual, I started this painting in Rebelle, using watercolors and inks to make lots of drips and other interesting shapes and lines.

Then, I took it into Painter and added the impasto brushes.

I’m thinking of changing my blog.  I started this blog because I was very ill with what was diagnosed at Fibromyalgia and Lyme disease.  Well, it turns out I just had Lyme disease.  I’m feeling better after four long years of treatment for the Lyme.

I am out and about walking and doing other things I haven’t been able to do in almost 20 years.  I want my blog to be a celebration of the new me.  I’m going to keep the name of my blog, but change the description.

It turns out that I also have atypical migraines.  I have had a bad bout with that.  But, hooray, there’s a medication for that.  I’m on it, and that is resolving.  I’ve had that since 1983.  So, things are really looking up in my life.  I hope your life is going well.

 

Rainy Day Dreams

Raiiny Day Dreams

Rainy Day Dreams

I have to say that I am feeling so much better.  Better than I have felt in 20 years or so.  Lyme disease, which I have in addition to fibromyalgia, has more than just one germ that needs to be eradicated.  Finally, my lyme physician has put me on yet another antibiotic that treats one of these germs.

I have had an amazing reaction to it.  While I was in Maui in October and November, I was able to walk one and one-half miles.  This may not sound like much to anyone.  But for me, it has been amazing.  I haven’t been able to walk much more than about two blocks or so at a time.  Yes, I have walked longer at times, but then came home exhausted and would have to rest for many days, sometimes, weeks.

But in Maui, I did this and was able to keep going back for more.

Inside of me there has been this heaviness, that pulls me down.  It has been there for over 20 years.  That is finally going away.  This is very exciting for me.

My creativity also seems to be increasing.  That is really exciting.

As to this painting.  I started it in Rebelle with watercolors.  I just poured on watercolors in various bright shades and made them very thick and let them pour down.

Then, I took the painting into Painter.  I used some of Painter’s new brushes called Dynamic Speckle brushes. I used them to further refine the shapes that I found.  Then I took pencils and did some outlining of shapes.  This was a very fun painting to do.

I gave it this name, because I started it on a very dark dreary day, and I was dreaming of bright colors that hopefully will come after the first of the year.

 

Dreaming About Maui

Dreaming About Maui

Dreaming About Maui

 

I just returned from a two-month trip to Maui.  It’s like I’m a new woman.  I have more energy than I’ve had in over 20 years.  I have Lyme disease.  It went undiagnosed for 18 years.  I think that the treatment for the Lyme is finally starting to work.

I usually feel like I’m carrying around a 50-pound rock and always feel exhausted.  I never do anything without first thinking about it to see if I have enough energy.  That feeling is gone.  I hope it continues to last.  The pain is also being controlled with medication.  I am so grateful.

This painting I did while in Maui.  There are so many incredibly beautiful flowers in Maui.  I just had to paint a few.

I started this painting in Rebelle with watercolors and inks and finished it in Painter with oil paints.

Flower Frenzy

Flower Frenzy

Flower Frenzy

I started this painting like I start all my paintings.  I make a few layers of marks with several colors.  Then I start looking to find what appears to me in the painting.

Lately, all I’ve seen are flowers.  Flowers everywhere.

I think this is because I’m getting closer to going to Maui for two months.  Maui is filled with gorgeous colors and beautiful flowers.

When I first became ill, my life as I knew it ended.  I laid in bed for over 15 years with no diagnosis.  I did nothing except go to doctors when able.

When I finally got a diagnosis of lyme disease, I got treatment and some of my life returned.  Not a lot, but more than I had.

I believe that my constant faith in God (although there were some challenging times about that) and my ability to pick myself up and be positive and practice staying positive got me back to living.

My life is still very limited, but I’m extremely grateful I live only a five-hour flight from Maui.  I can do sitting on an airplane.  I collapse once I get there.  But, I’ll have plenty of time to recover from the flight this year.

Aloha, everyone!

 

A Bird In Your Pocket

A Bird in Your Pocket

A Bird in Your Pocket

I have had a very challenging year, health-wise.  The fibromyalgia flared up around New Years Eve, and has kept me lying low many days.

Last fall, while we were in Maui, I started sitting up all day.  This was the first time in over 18 years that I didn’t spend 99% of my days in bed.  I also got dressed every day.  This may not sound like a lot, but when you’ve lived in a nightie in bed for so long, it is huge.

When we got home in November, I continued sitting up in my art studio.  I was doing so well that at Christmas, I got a new, 27″ screen for my computer!  It makes a huge difference to paint on that rather than my laptop computer.  But then, the first of the year, I found myself back in bed more than in my studio.  It has been a real battle to get enough rest and still sit up as much as possible.

But, I feel like I’ve won the battle.  In the last few weeks, I’ve been able to go to my studio at least three to four days a week.  I’m even taking small walks down to our mailbox.

Now a Bird In Your Pocket.

Oh No You Don’t

Oh No You Don't

Oh No You Don’t

This painting is one I did a couple of months ago.  Somehow it didn’t get posted yet.

It is done with oil brushes and liquid inks and some pencils were added.  I did this piece in Painter 2015.

It was a very hard piece to bring to a conclusion.  I really liked parts of it, but there were areas, as it developed, that drove me nuts.  When I did this, I was focusing, as usual on lights and darks.  Values and good contrast are big parts of a good painting.

In Painter, it is possible to add a layer to the piece I’m working on, then I fill the layer with black and choose the composite method colorize.  When that layer is open, it turns the painting into grey scale.  It is then easy to see whether the painting has enough values going on.

I ended up turning this picture on its side several times before deciding that it would go this way.  That is something I learned in my first painting class from Flora Bowley.

It really comes in handy when working on an abstract.

I have had a very hard time this year with my health.  I have had a lot of break-through pain.  Something that hasn’t happened in over a year.  That, along with GOK (God Only Knows) has caused me to have to spend more time in bed and paint less this year.  I get very despondent on days when I feel sick.  It feels like I’ve stepped backwards and will never go forward again.

I think this is all part of the healing process from lyme disease.  A good friend and I have discussed this years’ setbacks.  I’ve concluded, with her help, that just maybe the bad days seem a lot worse because the good days are so much better.  I certainly hope so.

I try to continue to stay positive no matter what my health is doing.  I am just very grateful to be able to do art again.

 

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