The Inner Peace Award

I Got the Blues

I Got the Blues

I have been awarded the Inner Peace Award by Ewa at Fibromyalgia and Self Disorders.

This really means a lot to me.

The rules of this award are to say why you choose to accept it, and then pass it on to others.

Before I got sick, I had started a journey to find inner peace.  I had done a lot of reading and soul-searching.

Then, fibromyalgia.  No inner peace there.

I spent so many years distraught, crying, screaming and generally just miserable.

Then, slowly, I began to pick myself up.  I began to piece things back together.

Then I got treatment for Lyme disease.  I had gone 15 years flat on my back in bed with the Lyme undiagnosed.  Finally, treatment was started and then things began to come together.

I was able to go back where I had been in my mid-30’s and start to find that inner peace I wanted so much.

That is why I started to blog.  I wanted to share with others how I had travelled the path of grief over losing my life and had somehow come out the other side.

Now, I am being really challenged.  My inner peace and calm are being disrupted.

I have been on the same dose of pain medication since 1993.  I had occasional pain breakthroughs, which were treated with additional pain medication.  They never lasted longer than a few days.  That I could handle.

Sometime in late summer, I started having pain episodes.  I tried to ignore them.  But they became worse and worse.  Now they have turned into constant pain.

My inner peace is really being challenged.

In addition, I am seeing a new provider for pain medication.  This woman seems more interested in trying to catch me making her for drugs than she does trying to take care of the pain I have.  It is extremely upsetting and stressful.

The stress makes the fibromyalgia worse, which makes the pain worse, which . . .  You get the idea.

But I’ve learned some things over the years.

I believe that God will take care of me.  I may end up in  lot of pain, but I know he will lead me to be able to handle it.

This current person who is prescribing medication may only be a stopping point on the road I’m on.  I believe that there is a peaceful ending to this current side trip.

I so want back the peace and pain-free life I had for so many years.  But maybe that is not to be.  But I want to live up to this award of Inner Peace.

It came at a time when I really needed it, and it means so much.

Thank you, Ewa.  You are truly one of God’s angels today.

I am very new to blogging.  So I don’t know a lot of other bloggers.  However, I would like to pass this award on to some bloggers who have been helpful to me in my journey to find and keep inner peace.

They are:

Dawn Hosking

Jenn at My Fibrotastic Life

Katarina at Painfully Aware

Susan at Owls & Orchids

I have a good friend, Leigh, who is very supportive of my blog, but doesn’t have a blog, yet.  I want to add her name in here also.

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Before I got sick, I was becoming a fairly successful textile artist.

Then after getting FM/Lyme, I couldn’t do any art at all.

About a year ago, I started painting digitally on the computer.  It brought my art back to me.  Being an artist is what I am about.  I have to do art for my soul to be OK.

I started out doing really bright paintings using all colors of the rainbow.  Then I decided to try muted colors.  I’ve done that for a bit, but have decided that BRIGHT is what I am about.

So here is my latest piece where I start using brighter colors.

You can see this along with all my other paintings by looking in the menu under Gallery and choosing Paintings.

Thanks for taking a look.

I’m Putting Up My Paintings

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When I first got the idea of blogging, I decided it would be all about my art.  But then I realized that fibromyalgia was a big part of my life.  I had gone through grieving over losing just about everything, and come out on the other side.  Part of that coming out on the other side, was being able to do art again.

When I became disabled from fibromyalgia and Lyme, I could no longer continue to do textiles.  I had majored in textile art in college and had sold my work and was showing it in galleries.  It was feeling like my art was going to take off.

But not so much.  Everything came to a halt, including textiles.

I thought I was done with art.  It was devastating.  My soul, who I am, is an artist.

Then, in September, 2013, a friend told me about a class that Flora Bowley was teaching on-line.

My first reaction, was no way, I don’t want to learn to paint a landscapes.

OK, Mrs. Negativity, it is an abstract painting class.  Oops.

So, I took the class with my friend.  It was amazing.  Flora not only teaches abstract painting, she is also all about living a spiritual, bold, beautiful life.  Yes, I totally related.  Flora calls us all Bloomers.  That’s what I am, a Bloomer.

Many of Flora’s students end up painting just like Flora.  But my first priority was to not paint like Flora.  She’s done it like herself and done it well.  I could never out Flora Flora. Besides, I want to be me.  Paint what is inside of me.

I had a digital painting program, so I could paint from bed.  The app is called Painter.  It is fabulous.  It comes with over 700 brushes.  Plus, I can make my own, which I do.  It has all kinds of media, oils, acrylics, pens, crayons, charcoal, conté, watercolor, etc.

I am soaring.  Art has been returned to me.

I had never really painted.  I felt lost.  I knew next to nothing about painting techniques.  My friend, Mimi, helped me.  I don’t know what I would have done without her help.  She led me along my new path.

Mimi is a very good artist.  You can check her out here.

I have now been painting for a year.  I feel that I am finally getting it.

Initially, I wanted to share in this blog what I learned about painting.  But now I realize there are really good teachers on You Tube.

I will put my paintings in a gallery for you to look at.

Click on Art Work on the menu and pick the Paintings gallery.  This will have all my recent art work.

I Got Another Award

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Just before I left for Hawaii, super nice Jenn at My Fibrotastic Life, gave me yet another award.  I am so honored.

This award is called, I am Part of the Word Press Family.  It was started by Shaun whose blog is Looking for reasoning in to a complicated word.

I am very honored to have received this award.

When one wins this award, that person is to award it to ten others.  I barely have started blogging, and don’t know that many Word Press bloggers, so I am awarding less than ten.

I am just starting to get that Word Press is a family.  Most days at lunch, I sit at my computer and read the blogs I subscribe to.  I’m starting to get to know blogging and bloggers.  I really look forward to reading the blogs I am getting to know.

I am mostly interested in other artists and people with fibromyalgia/CFS/Lyme.  Those two things are most of my life.

I would like to pass this award on to:

Dawn Y. Hosking, who has been so supportive of me and my blog.  Check her blog out here.

I would also like to pass the award to another supportive reader, Daniel Milberg, an awesome photographer.

I absolutely have to award Heather Roberts whose blog is Sincerely Ms. Roberts.  Her blog is always interesting with subject all over the map.

I always enjoy seeing what Hanno Phenn comes up with in his art.  So I include him in this award.

Bodies On the Beach-10

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My husband and I wake up early every morning.  It has been nice to be out on the lanai, watching everyone wake up.

One treat we see each day is a group from a canoe club down the beach.  They get up and go out in the ocean about 6:30 each morning.

This picture was taken by my husband, Warren C. Mitchell on a Sony RX 100 II.

If anyone is looking to buy a camera, this one is very good.  It is a large view lens which makes the quality of the photos as good as DSLR cameras.

This is my last week.  I have so enjoyed my trip.

Aloha.

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