My husband retired last July, and I got behind in blogging because I used to do my blogging and reading of blogs during lunch. Now, I eat lunch with him. I’m trying to get caught up on reading other’s blogs and writing my own.
Overall, I’m glad that Warren is retired and is spending more time with me. We have been together since 1970. We moved in together that year. When we were younger, and sometimes not employed, we always had a blast together. I had pictured the same thing would be true now that we are no longer employed and have all day free to play.
The only thing I did not consider is that I am sick, and can’t go out and play anytime I want to. Despite that, I am still enjoying having Warren in my life all day, every day.
This winter was very hard for me. I had a flare of some kind, and was sick from New Years Eve until recently. I am feeling on the upswing now. But, it was a real scare. I went back to spending days where I could do nothing but lay in bed, under the covers and be very sick. I had a lot of pain breakthroughs that were very severe. On those days, old tapes would start to play in my head. I would start to think that I was going to spend all day, every day back in bed and be able to do nothing.
That is when positive thinking came back to save me. I got myself calmed down and thought through the process logically. I would admit that yes, I’m sick today. But the recent pattern has been that I will be sick one day and then better the next. Usually within two days, I’m up, dressed and going out to lunch with Warren. I affirmed these things. I prayed for help and guidance. I practiced positive thinking. I forced myself to think in a positive way.
As usual, it worked. The pain eventually subsided and is under control again with morphine. I have more energy and am feeling better just in time for summer.
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