The Inner Peace Award

I Got the Blues

I Got the Blues

I have been awarded the Inner Peace Award by Ewa at Fibromyalgia and Self Disorders.

This really means a lot to me.

The rules of this award are to say why you choose to accept it, and then pass it on to others.

Before I got sick, I had started a journey to find inner peace.  I had done a lot of reading and soul-searching.

Then, fibromyalgia.  No inner peace there.

I spent so many years distraught, crying, screaming and generally just miserable.

Then, slowly, I began to pick myself up.  I began to piece things back together.

Then I got treatment for Lyme disease.  I had gone 15 years flat on my back in bed with the Lyme undiagnosed.  Finally, treatment was started and then things began to come together.

I was able to go back where I had been in my mid-30’s and start to find that inner peace I wanted so much.

That is why I started to blog.  I wanted to share with others how I had travelled the path of grief over losing my life and had somehow come out the other side.

Now, I am being really challenged.  My inner peace and calm are being disrupted.

I have been on the same dose of pain medication since 1993.  I had occasional pain breakthroughs, which were treated with additional pain medication.  They never lasted longer than a few days.  That I could handle.

Sometime in late summer, I started having pain episodes.  I tried to ignore them.  But they became worse and worse.  Now they have turned into constant pain.

My inner peace is really being challenged.

In addition, I am seeing a new provider for pain medication.  This woman seems more interested in trying to catch me making her for drugs than she does trying to take care of the pain I have.  It is extremely upsetting and stressful.

The stress makes the fibromyalgia worse, which makes the pain worse, which . . .  You get the idea.

But I’ve learned some things over the years.

I believe that God will take care of me.  I may end up in  lot of pain, but I know he will lead me to be able to handle it.

This current person who is prescribing medication may only be a stopping point on the road I’m on.  I believe that there is a peaceful ending to this current side trip.

I so want back the peace and pain-free life I had for so many years.  But maybe that is not to be.  But I want to live up to this award of Inner Peace.

It came at a time when I really needed it, and it means so much.

Thank you, Ewa.  You are truly one of God’s angels today.

I am very new to blogging.  So I don’t know a lot of other bloggers.  However, I would like to pass this award on to some bloggers who have been helpful to me in my journey to find and keep inner peace.

They are:

Dawn Hosking

Jenn at My Fibrotastic Life

Katarina at Painfully Aware

Susan at Owls & Orchids

I have a good friend, Leigh, who is very supportive of my blog, but doesn’t have a blog, yet.  I want to add her name in here also.

  10 comments for “The Inner Peace Award

  1. dawnhosking
    November 27, 2013 at 3:39 am

    Congratulations and thank you 😉


  2. November 26, 2013 at 5:59 pm

    Yes congratulations to you Kerry. I look forward to many more posts.


  3. Leigh Prim
    November 26, 2013 at 3:47 pm

    Oh, Kerry. Congratulations!!!!

    I just cried reading this. Tears because I relate to the years of suffering, and tears of joy with what you have accomplished.

    Thank you for the hope. Thank you for your sweet honorable mention of me.

    You deserve this, and I am SO HAPPY for you.

    I hope it is alright that I posted this on my FB wall. I know so many people who are in bed, and I know some read without commenting.

    XOXO have a great day today, and I hope the Lyrica may be beginning to work for you.



    • November 26, 2013 at 4:09 pm

      Hi Leigh,

      Thank you so much for your wonderfully kind comments. You are a great woman. The Lyrica didn’t work out. I had side effects. Worse brain fog and fatigue. Those are not good side effects for people with FM. Ugh.


  4. November 26, 2013 at 3:44 pm

    Congratulations, Kerry! You are a huge inspiration to me in so many ways.


  5. November 26, 2013 at 2:46 pm

    Congrats, again! I still have this one to get posted, as well. I better get my son on it right away. He’s not feeling very well at the moment.
    Wild Thang 🙂


  6. Jumping_Jenny_444
    November 26, 2013 at 12:21 pm

    Congratulations Kerry, and thank you so much for nominating me! 🙂 you’re a very strong woman after all of the ups and downs you have gone through regarding your chronic illnesses. I find that to be very admirable. I agree that god takes care of us and no matter how bad things may look, there will be a good outcome for all of us.


    • November 26, 2013 at 12:39 pm

      Thank you so much for your comments. I think you are another very strong woman, too. I’m now going to try to make a slide show widget of my awards. I copied the jpg’s from your site. Also the idea of doing them in a slide show.


      • Jumping_Jenny_444
        November 26, 2013 at 12:40 pm

        It’s an easier way to show off your awards. 😉


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