In my last blog, I said I would write about how changing my life got me into a positive flow of energy that I call God.
My coming to believe in God happened on one night. Usually with most people, it is a slow awakening process to come to understand God.
I believe there is an energy flow out there that we are all a part of. We can either choose to take part in it or go against it. It is just like a river; go with the flow or fight a constant battle upstream.
So what did I find that puts me in this flow, that brings me happiness and peace?
One area that needed immediate attention was lying, cheating and stealing. This did not appeal to me at all. I thought I benefitted from all the dishonesty.
I told lies. I stole things. I cheated. I thought this was the easy way. My rationalizations included everybody does it, it won’t hurt anyone, it’s a big corporation, etc. Those reasons are not true. Not everyone lies, cheats or takes what is not theirs.
It has been a slow process of understanding exactly what is lying, cheating and stealing. There are so many levels to these actions. They are subtle.
I took a long, hard look at my negative actions. I realized that lying, stealing and cheating were harming me. It was keeping me outside of the good that is there for me. I realized that when I act negatively, I am not in the flow of good. Therefore, good cannot come to me.
Learning to be honest, not steal and not cheat is hard. It is not something that came to me overnight. It has been a long learning process. In fact, I’m still learning. Lying, cheating and stealing had become so ingrained in me, that I had to learn to be constantly alert to what and how I’m thinking and acting.
I found that when I stole, cheated or lied, I had a lot of worry about being caught. I decided why not quit all this and have some peace and quiet? The benefits are awesome, more than I could have realized.
So what about white lies? You know, the little ones. I came to realize a lie is a lie is a lie.
I’m an artist and know other artists. When they show me their work, and I don’t like it, I get really confused. There is what is known as the socially acceptable lie. That consists of me not wanting to hurt someone. But I don’t want to lie, it hurts me.
So what I do is do my best to sound enthusiastic and find something in the piece that I like. It is hard to do and takes a lot of practice, but it can be done. Maybe I’m still not being honest, this is just where I am now.
I recently had an experience where I lied and didn’t realize it.
I have a friend in Canada who wanted a digital pad to draw with on the computer. I was buying a new one. Even though we are friends, I thought he wouldn’t let me give him my old one. Please note here, I didn’t try to give it to him. Hmmm.
So I went on Amazon and eBay and priced my old drawing pad. I offered it to him below what was being charged. See what a great person I am? Then, to help him out, when I mailed it, I put the value at $300, rather than $150 which he paid.
Why would I do this, it’s a lie? Well, my justification was to value it at the price of a new tablet. Then if it got lost, my good friend could get a brand new tablet. But I didn’t stop and think that this was dishonest. It was an instance of me thinking it wouldn’t really hurt anybody.
When it arrived in Canada there was a charge of $97.00. What’s going on? Well, because I valued the tablet so high, he had to pay duty on it. I couldn’t believe it. I had lied.
What to do? Well, when faced with a learning lesson, learn. I learned again, no matter how nice I think I’m being, don’t lie, cheat or steal.
So to teach myself a lesson, I gave him the tablet for the $97.00 he paid someone else.
I should have listened to my original intention. Give my friend the tablet.
I believe that God, or the energy flow, knows when I’m trying to do my best. I didn’t pay a steep price for having lied. I just got a gentle reminder to keep trying harder. I had a step backward. I learned from it. Even though my intentions were good, my lying was not.
I have learned something important in these learning lessons of mine. Basically, life is three steps forward and two back. When I do go back two steps, I learn what is there to learn and move forward. Beating myself up only harms me and the lesson gets lost.
I do my best to be honest, not lie, cheat or steal. What I find is that when I try my very best, I keep in the flow or positive energy.
There are many more things I had to learn to get in touch with God and what I call the energy flow. I will write more in my next blogs.
OMGosh! Kerry, I am not feeling well and am so tired, and want to give this more time, the time it deserves, and I lost my password, which I’ll get.
Really awesome!!!!! One of the things I liked so much about you when I read your first email to me was your straight-forwardness. This goes so much further, getting to truth, simply and without excuse, which I feel is the power in your blogs.
The art caught me immediately, and is so fun. My eyes are tired and I felt them almost playing visually in what I was seeing–it was actually calming and fun!
I know I am brief–I hope to have more energy soon, very soon.
Take care, Leigh
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Since I’ve never stolen anything and never lied, I can’t relate to your story at all but I do appreciate your openness on this topic.
I grew up in a household of lies. Fortunately only a little bit of this rubbed off on me and as I became a healthier person I was able to leave all that behind.
Of course no one in my family is speaking to me now which has been difficult but has actually turned out to be very good for my sanity, such as it is.
Good for you. When I quit lying and started telling the truth, my family didn’t like me either. It’s best to be honest. It leaves one free to think and do other things that are good for us. Thanks for reading my blog.
Wow, thanks for sharing that. I know telling people that you lied, cheated, or stole is very difficult even though a lot of people do it anyway. I’ve yet to tell all in what’s happened in my life, but I feel that I’ve gotten a second chance and that chance has given me a fresh start, which is more than I can imagine.
Yeah, I’ve had second thoughts since I posted that, but what the heck. I know a lot of people do those things. They justify it in amazing ways, just like I did.
I don’t see you any different. I see you the way you are now: a person who doesn’t do those dishonest things anymore and that’s what matters.
Thanks, Heather. I used to be not such a good person. But all that is in the past. I go with the present and a bit of future.
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