My God, My God, MY GOD!

I have had an off and on relationship with God in my life. 

When I was young, I went to church and Sunday School.  I earned a bible of my own by memorizing and reciting the 23rd Psalm.  Good for me.  But what did it mean?  I had no idea. 

What did I learn from that Presbyterian church that I grew up in?  Nothing that I  can recall.  There was no studying the Bible, no outstanding sermons, no breakthrough revelations, nada. 

I believed in the big guy in the sky kind of God.  I prayed and went through the motions.  But I never connected to God.  Never really understood what/who he is. 

I went to college and became a political radical in the 60’s and 70’s.  God was put by the wayside. 

Then I had a huge spiritual awakening when I was 33.  It was like, wow, there is a God and He is here; NOW. 

Having evidence of God, I realized I needed to come to an understanding of what He is. 

I decided to do a lot of thinking and reading.  I read everything I could get my hands on.  I gave deep thought to what all this information meant.  I read about as many religions as I could and works by great spiritual thinkers.  Seeing all the different beliefs that were out there, I decided to create a God of my understanding. 

I put together a God that comes from all the research, thinking and most important, living in a new way. 

I started a spiritual journey, which lasts to this day. 

This is what I discovered at the beginning of my journey.

For me, there is a divine, very powerful, energy flow out there that I can choose to be part of.  By living a positive, ethical, caring and compassionate life, I can tap into a positive flow of energy.  This, to me, is God. 

I believe there is a path that I can choose to follow and be in touch with the good that is there for me. 

It takes work and concentration to get into this flow of energy.  When I am in this flow, things go better.  Good follows good.  Positive brings about positive.  Miracles happen.  I am peaceful and content. 

I’ve been challenged in my beliefs.  Getting so ill, and losing just about everything in my life didn’t seem so good and positive.  But over time, I worked through the grief, depression, anger, rage feelings of abandonment and resentment.  I came to see these emotions were nothing but poison.  I came to see I had control over what went on in my head and therefore, what occurred in my world.  I actually saw what turning around thoughts could do.  In the end I learned how potent words and thoughts are.

I’ll write more in later posts how I went about changing my life to tap into this wonderful energy.