I have had an off and on relationship with God in my life.
When I was young, I went to church and Sunday School. I earned a bible of my own by memorizing and reciting the 23rd Psalm. Good for me. But what did it mean? I had no idea.
What did I learn from that Presbyterian church that I grew up in? Nothing that I can recall. There was no studying the Bible, no outstanding sermons, no breakthrough revelations, nada.
I believed in the big guy in the sky kind of God. I prayed and went through the motions. But I never connected to God. Never really understood what/who he is.
I went to college and became a political radical in the 60’s and 70’s. God was put by the wayside.
Then I had a huge spiritual awakening when I was 33. It was like, wow, there is a God and He is here; NOW.
Having evidence of God, I realized I needed to come to an understanding of what He is.
I decided to do a lot of thinking and reading. I read everything I could get my hands on. I gave deep thought to what all this information meant. I read about as many religions as I could and works by great spiritual thinkers. Seeing all the different beliefs that were out there, I decided to create a God of my understanding.
I put together a God that comes from all the research, thinking and most important, living in a new way.
I started a spiritual journey, which lasts to this day.
This is what I discovered at the beginning of my journey.
For me, there is a divine, very powerful, energy flow out there that I can choose to be part of. By living a positive, ethical, caring and compassionate life, I can tap into a positive flow of energy. This, to me, is God.
I believe there is a path that I can choose to follow and be in touch with the good that is there for me.
It takes work and concentration to get into this flow of energy. When I am in this flow, things go better. Good follows good. Positive brings about positive. Miracles happen. I am peaceful and content.
I’ve been challenged in my beliefs. Getting so ill, and losing just about everything in my life didn’t seem so good and positive. But over time, I worked through the grief, depression, anger, rage feelings of abandonment and resentment. I came to see these emotions were nothing but poison. I came to see I had control over what went on in my head and therefore, what occurred in my world. I actually saw what turning around thoughts could do. In the end I learned how potent words and thoughts are.
I’ll write more in later posts how I went about changing my life to tap into this wonderful energy.