I have had an off and on relationship with God in my life.
When I was young, I went to church and Sunday School. I earned a bible of my own by memorizing and reciting the 23rd Psalm. Good for me. But what did it mean? I had no idea.
What did I learn from that Presbyterian church that I grew up in? Nothing that I can recall. There was no studying the Bible, no outstanding sermons, no breakthrough revelations, nada.
I believed in the big guy in the sky kind of God. I prayed and went through the motions. But I never connected to God. Never really understood what/who he is.
I went to college and became a political radical in the 60’s and 70’s. God was put by the wayside.
Then I had a huge spiritual awakening when I was 33. It was like, wow, there is a God and He is here; NOW.
Having evidence of God, I realized I needed to come to an understanding of what He is.
I decided to do a lot of thinking and reading. I read everything I could get my hands on. I gave deep thought to what all this information meant. I read about as many religions as I could and works by great spiritual thinkers. Seeing all the different beliefs that were out there, I decided to create a God of my understanding.
I put together a God that comes from all the research, thinking and most important, living in a new way.
I started a spiritual journey, which lasts to this day.
This is what I discovered at the beginning of my journey.
For me, there is a divine, very powerful, energy flow out there that I can choose to be part of. By living a positive, ethical, caring and compassionate life, I can tap into a positive flow of energy. This, to me, is God.
I believe there is a path that I can choose to follow and be in touch with the good that is there for me.
It takes work and concentration to get into this flow of energy. When I am in this flow, things go better. Good follows good. Positive brings about positive. Miracles happen. I am peaceful and content.
I’ve been challenged in my beliefs. Getting so ill, and losing just about everything in my life didn’t seem so good and positive. But over time, I worked through the grief, depression, anger, rage feelings of abandonment and resentment. I came to see these emotions were nothing but poison. I came to see I had control over what went on in my head and therefore, what occurred in my world. I actually saw what turning around thoughts could do. In the end I learned how potent words and thoughts are.
I’ll write more in later posts how I went about changing my life to tap into this wonderful energy.
It’s rare for me to find someone who has the same idea of god as I do, and I especially appreciate the way you are able to verbalize what I often can’t:
“For me, there is a divine, very powerful, energy flow out there that I can choose to be part of. By living a positive, ethical, caring and compassionate life, I can tap into a positive flow of energy. This, to me, is God.
It takes work and concentration to get into this flow of energy. When I am in this flow, things go better. ”
I used to think I was just being superstitious to believe in this kind of god because I have a logical and scientific mind. But now that I’ve studied more, I see that my belief isn’t necessarily contrary to scientific facts.
With the latest discoveries in physics, science is approaching an explanation of the metaphysical phenomena that it has always been able to disprove. Now such invisible and undetectable forces are becoming scientifically possible. A god of pure energy is no longer rationally impossible, so science is validating my faith!
Thank you for your comments. They were very well put. Yes, it does seem as though physics is starting to prove what we believe.
God really is there for you Kerry! If He brings you to it He will see you through it! I will pray for your healing. After reading your post, you have inspired me. You have made me realize that sharing ones’ God given gifts, creating out of love is in fact a blessing! When I turned to God, I used to be ashamed of the fact that I was an artist, because I believed it was an altogether selfish pursuit, but apparently, that is not the case. P. S. I love the colors in your digital work! I am a multimedia artist as well! Would love it if you’d pop on over to my blog http://acevesart2.wordpress.com/! I’d really appreciate your input!
Thanks for stopping by. I’m so glad you realize that God gives each of us talents to use. All I ever want to do is art. I feel compelled to do it. I know that is what I should be doing. Yes, God is always there for us. We just need to be connected to him. He never shuts us out. We shut Him out.
Excellent Blog. Anxiously awaiting to read “how I went about changing my life to tap into this wonderful energy”
The same kind of conclusion that I have come too-although there is always a good and bad to everything.
Excuse the typo. This is one of the flaws in WordPress for me is there isn’t a preview before you post.
Super post Kerry. I am always interested in how and why people believe in God. Mine beliefs are very similar to yours in many ways.